love too much.... or worry too much ???

Dearest Libby,
What’s up hunny ?? Today is Saturday, November 3, 2007…today is the first time mommy and daddy are away from Adelle and Aliyya. We’re in JW Mariott Singapore(which is located on the above of Tang’s) and just across of Isetan/ Borders. It is intentionally mommy and daddy left Adelle and Aliyya with uti since we want to see whether Aliyya can be left by mommy…you know Aliyya is very close with mommy so she can be left even for couple of hours by mommy, while Adelle is already a big girl and she’s very much independent so we are not that worry about her. As I have told you earlier next week we are going to London and Paris for a week, I’m afraid Aliyya will be having trouble being left home. So for the past few days we have been brainwashing Aliyya that we are going to Singapore without her… we kept telling her that she’s a big girl too now that she’s very smart and independent so she shouldn’t be crying when mommy is not around her. And you know Aliyya is such a proud girl, she likes to be praised and always wants to be the best. So apparently our strategy works and Aliyya agreed to be with uti for the whole weekend as long as she can go to Bandung with uti to play in BSM. Now the big day came for her this morning when we had to leave using the taxi.Adelle and Aliyya was in the garage with uti waving good bye to us. Adelle kissed us goodbye and just waved to us, as we have predicted Adelle can easily take this. Aliyya also wanted to show her bravery she said “Bye mommy.. bye daddy, I love you…” and I saw her eyes started to watery as if she’s holding a cry….Actually it’s harder for me to leave Aliyya than mommy… I was starting to feel pity for her, but mommy kept saying to me “ udah nggak apa-apa.. she‘s okay !!” I know she’s okay, I just feel sorry for her…ayah nggak tega ninggalin dia…. You know me liv… I’m such a crying baby… anyway, finally we left her with uti, and I’m trying hard not to think too much about it… you know something I realize that I worry too much for my daughters’ well being… it’s like a paranoia.. I told mommy I don’t know what will I do if I have to send them abroad when they have to go to college or may be even high school… I could end up crying everyday. I guess I love my daughters too much… or may be i'm worry too much ?? i don't know...
Love you always liv…
Ayah dicky